Still thinking what's the right title for this post

It was three days ago, that she knew the surprising news. Very surprising actually. The matter had never crossed her mind before. Not even in a second. Never.
It was overall a great day for her, well, almost a day. Her day starts with a smile. Somebody, a random person she doesn't even know told her that she's beautiful. That really made her day. And then, just another 2 hours before the day ends, she's informed of the matter.
As usual, just before she goes to sleep, she'll text with someone she knew from her old school while lying on her bed and reading a book. That night, she's reading It by Stephen King. The book is thick, with a total of 1000+ pages. She's on the chapter where there's a kid, a 10 yr old boy was missing. His brother was dead because of child abuse by his step-father. And then another kid, taking a walk to the park on an early morning, found the missing boy, slaughtered, bloody, and headless. When she had enough of it, she'll put it down at the side of her pillow and go to sleep. But she's not feeling sleepy yet.
That was when her old school friend told her that matter.

He likes her.

4 years he's been keeping that secret to himself. Nobody even knew that matter. Not a single one of his friends knew. And then that night, he finally confess his feelings towards her. She was very surprised. She thought he was joking, just to make her feel like a fool, thinking that someone would actually likes her for that long.
But he's not. He's serious. And actually that was the first time that he confess to a girl. His best friend, used to like her too. On the old days where they're still young, she used to know that he likes her friend in the same class as her. So that's why she doesn't suspect anything. Nobody does.
But the girl he likes back then was not a real like. It was just as if he was encouraged from his friends to like that girl. Because they look good together. But he doesn't actually.
Luckily after he confess his feelings, he never asked her what's her feelings towards him. She knew it must have been a torture to him, to keep that secret for so long. Maybe not long for other people, but it is to her. She knew that he was relieved after he finally gain all the courage to confess. She knew that for him, he need not to know what's her feelings towards him.
For him, what's done is done. No turning back. 
If he were to ask her that question someday, she will say that he's just a friend, who's been so caring for her all this while, and a supporting one too. No more, no less. She hopes that he'll understand this and has no hard feelings towards her.
But the questions was never asked, so it remained unanswered.

So here she is, still texting to him as if nothing had happened three days ago. She loves it how they still can chat as usual, still joking with lame jokes, still talking about random things. She knew very well if they do meet each other face to face, it would've been really awkward. Really awkward.

11.11.11

Get your wishes ready, because you won't see that date for the rest of your life. School is officially over for 2011 today. 

syasha with her amazing smile :)

me with a cute white bear.

the weasleys.

malay girls.

lol. srsly guys, you need a REAL table.

manda and ade :)

Ah-mahn-dahh

ze cat at our school. ps: it's cat daddy's wife. XD

the class after we cleaned it.

So get your gears up, next year's gonna be hectic!

Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha

It is the 6th of November 2011, 10 Zulhijjah 1432H according to the Islamic calendar. And today is Hari Raya Aidiladha. Nothing much, woke up at 5.10 a.m. this morning for the morning prayer then sleep back again, woke up at 7 a.m. Abah and Iman (younger brother) went to the mosque, Masjid Nurussyakirin for the raya prayer. Then me and Mama are getting ready and wait for them to come home from the mosque. At about 8.30 a.m., they came home and then we're off to my paternal grandparent's house (the one in Sri Taman, two lots away from Jay's house and opposite to my teacher's house, Mdm. Petronella) After an hour or two, we're off again and went to my maternal grandparent's house this time. There's lotsa food to eat! Beef curry, mixed vegetables, honey-cooked chicken, chicken satay, and not to forget, ketupat! My favourite was the honey-cooked chicken. Yum yum!

Hmm, talking bout 6th of November, i suddenly remember that syasha's birthday is in 10 more days! She said she's gonna held a party, nah, not really a party, just a small gathering with some food to eat and some things to do with small number of friends. I like it though. Can't wait for it. I miss my friends so much. I'm not used to big parties, it makes me nervous.

About the job I'm talking about, yes, the one i got so excited about until i'm stuck in the cyber cafe waiting for the rain to stop because i don't have an umbrella. Yep, that one, there's a good news, and a bad news. The good news is; I'm hired! They accept me to work there! The bad news is; unfortunately, I have to reject the offer. After I told mama I'm gonna work there, she starts to talk about problems i'm gonna face if I work there. The salary is not bad, RM350 for a month and all I have to do is stack some products on the rack. But the thing is, I have to work 7 days a week, from 9 a.m. to 6 p.m. So it's like there's no Sundays for me. And mama said if I work there, first; I won't be able to go shopping or go somewhere with my family, second; i won't have time to hang out with my friends during the hollies, such as syasha's party, third; there's lots more things I won't be able to do, I can't quite explain it, but the main thing is, it's just not the right time for me to work. So I guess I'll have to wait until it's the right time.

Next time I'll be braver, I'll be my own savior.

Currently listening to Adele-Turning Tables

I wish I can sing this song out loud but meh, I'm in the cyber cafe now. Everyone will think I'm weird. The reason why I'm here is because I'm waiting the clock to tick until it's 4.30 p.m. Grandma went to Happy Mart just now and came home telling me that they need a worker to stack some products on the rack. I can do that, I said. And granny asked me to go the mart again by 3 p.m and meet the person in charge But when I arrived, the man in charge is not there and one of the workers, a small one, came telling me that he'll be here by 4.30. So I end up here, in the cyber cafe. And it's raining heavily outside (with thunders and lightnings) and I got no umbrella and my phone can't hear voices through the other side of the phone so I can't call me granny. *sigh* My luck. Now I understand how hard it is to find a job. Crossing my fingers and I pray for the best. Hopefully my waiting is worth it.

Syasha sent a message to me on tumblr saying that she's so proud of me and that I must keep up my marvelous work. I will, ca, don't worry. As long as ipah's here, she'll try her best to do everything at its best. Well at least that made my day.

Holiday starts. (Not really, I got one more day to go)

I've changed my blog's layout and title and I have to say, i'm quite happy with it. Not as crappy as before. I hope now I'll be able to update my blog regularly. I'm planning to get a work during the holidays. I saw this pet shop near my housing area with a vacancy.. I can't quite say it's a pet shop since it doesn't sell cats and dogs. Just some small aquarium fish and rabbits and mice and turtles. A dull shop. You can smell the odor of the animals inside the shop. So since I like animals, I want to work there to fill up my free time during the holidays and to earn some extra money. But I guess i'm out of my luck. I asked my grandma to come with me and help me to ask the owner if he wants to accept a 15 year old girl to work there. No, sorry. That's what he said.

My father is asking me what am I gonna do during the hollies. I said I don't plan anything yet. I know he can't stand to see me doing nothing the whole day. At least I must do 'something' productive. And I'm still thinking what that 'something' would be.

"I always love browsing thorough your blog because it's calm and simple to me. It's like the beauty of life all captured in photos, placed together in a never-ending album of your personal taste. <3 Superman"

rninjaph5683

He said that to me. He praised my blog, not this blog, because I know whatever I post here is crappy lol. My other blog. My tumblr. Interesting personality, that man. He's a Vietnamese if i'm not mistaken. Isn't it nice? to have someone to praise your blog like that? I'm touched. Little did I know that there's actually someone who appreciate and adores my blog. 

I wish sometimes I can write stories better. Describing all the little, unnoticed and complex things. I'm good when making stories in my head, little dialogues would occupy my mind when I'm alone. But not when people are around. When I'm with people, it's like the little voices in my head are hiding, letting me go to get back to the reality again. But maybe it's just because expressing thoughts and feelings in words is not my strength. I'm better when I'm talking, telling all the little details, I sure can do it alright. I prefer talking although at some cases I need to write to express things I can't describe. Anyways, I think that's all for now. Until next time, love, ipah.

In a Blogging Mood

i'm intending to make a new blog. a fresh start. so that it wouldn't be so dusty and cobwebbed like this one. or just a make over. change the theme, my picture, my post.. okay, i'll decide it later. so i'm gonna start my story, just now mama asked me to watch over the fish she grilled for my cats because she's gonna go upstairs to iron my lil brother's clothes. i'm not really sure what she said but i simply say "okay ma." oh and i'm on the internet at the moment. after sometimes, mama came down and go to the kitchen. yes, you know what happened. the fish that should-not-be-over-grilled got over-grilled. mama's mad at me because i'm not doing what she asked me too. she said "i asked you to watch over the fish. turn off the fire if the fish is cooked." luckily the fish is not too bad after all. just a little burnt, if you ask me.

I went to the library today and borrowed some books. one of it is the Red Riding Hood by Blakley-Cartwright. it looked interesting so i wanna read it. now a major motion picture from the director of Twilight, Catherine Hardwicke. 

Red Riding Hood-Blakley Cartwright

my auntie from australia came to sandakan this year to celebrate hari raya with her family. she came to my house yesterday and she has a cute little 4 year old daughter named ayu. ayu likes cats. she has a round, dark brown eyes. her hair is curly and black. her skin is fair and soft. the name Ayu really suits her because she is ayu which means elegant and pretty in english. and woah, when she talks, she speaks in the australian accent. this is the first time i actually hear someone speaks in the australian accent. well of course i heard it in movies and shows on tv but this, she's speaking to me. in australian accent. she understands malay, alright but when we ask her in malay, she'll answer it in english lol. i guessed that's it for today. looking forward to talk to ayu again soon.

ipah

       

i started my day with a smile on my face.

i wake up at 8.30 this morning. i wanna sleep more because its raining and its cold. the right time to 'hibernate' haha. so, when i go downstairs, all my family members had their breakfast already. (yeah,i'm always the last one to get up in the morning XD) then, there's this show, u know.. 'just for laughs' on disney channel. man, i gotta tell u..so damn funny!! i'm laughing my head off! (calm down..my head is still here. belum t'cabut lagi.haha) 
     that's what i'm trying to say here. pagi2 lagi suda ketawa berabis.lol. and yeah, its still raining outside. after the show's over, i played dance dance revolution(DDR) with my brother.my younger brother,iman. if u don't know what's that, u can google it. then i got a B grade in Rihanna's Disturbia song. (expert level oh yeah) so, like 1 p.m. just now, i follow my mom hantar my grandma pergi sim2. my brother ikut my nenek juga. so, its me, my mom n dad only in the house. we singgah parkwell mau beli some food for dinner. and i bought a bar of cadbury chocolate!!(black forest flavored) and toblerone too!! yay. thank u mama. love yah. good times....good...times...

xoxo,

ipah :)

the old memories

yup! today is the 3rd of february 2011 and its chinese new year. i'm wishing my friend, Adeline a happy and prosperous year :D may your wishes come true! so, i red syasha's post just now and she met our old friends! well,not that 'old', old. u know what i mean. XD its been like.. 2 years! aahh... good ol' times with them. just thinking about that made me smile. :) 

so this is the picture when we are in the last year studying together, primary 6 Harmony 

Row 1(up) left to right: Kamalin, Maizura, Rekha, Rafida, Elly, Masdania, Iessaniena, Azira, Renysa, Sapawani, Clare, Shamira, Rasrika

Row 2(middle) left to right: Nike Arlinda, Syahneiza, Khairunnisa, Dasliana, Rozaima, Eva, Nadia, me, Anne, Amierah Afifah, Nurul Amira, Khatimah, Eri

Row 3(down) left to right: Allahyarhamah Satriani, Shareena, Dg.Ku, Leela, Yusheila, Helena, Herlina, Syaqira, Dahrimah, Marry, Shafika, Noor Atikha 

Sitting left to right: En.Rajim, Pn.Suaidah, Cik Hilnahwati, Pn.Sabariah, Pn.Lucy, Pn.Rose Solibun, Pn.Dora, Pn.Hazizah, En.Francis, Pn.Nicole Lin, Ustz.Rosli

and the teachers too! :D miss them.

      well,i guess that brought the memories back! :D so that's it for now then. happy chinese new year and have a wonderful day! 

xoxo,

ipah :)

so, i guess this is my first post!

hiya! yeah. this is actually my first post in my first blog so i'm still thinking what to write lol :p okayy, i'm writing this post at 9:50 am on the 2nd of february 2011. and i made my twitter acc too yesterday and i found these katy perry's, rihanna's, justin bieber's twitter...hmmm.. i wonder if its really them or its just some ppl 'faking' themselves as the stars.. oh well, what do i care anyway. haha. http://twitter.com/#!/jetgirlspin so u can follow me on twitter if u would like to. i'm kinda new so i don't really have that much followers yet. just some friends in my school. 
     also, i finished reading a book with 463 pages last night. the book is called 'Tunnels' written by Roderick Gordon and Brian Williams. if the full mark is 5 i would give 3.8. no need to ask why, u just have to read it by yourself~! 

xoxo,

ipah  :)